The overseas study enables me to meet very different people with a more opened mind. While I come to find that it’s almost not possible to make friends from these people. The more difficult thing is that everyone is thinking where to position himself/herself, where to go to next, where can I find the sense of home, etc. To be short, people abroad can hardly or cannot find the sense of belonging.
Sense of Flowing
I have been in Finland for 2 years till now, while how many friends do I have? I sometimes cannot answer since the understanding and definition of friend seem so different in Finland and in China, I am not sure if I can define a person as friend. I’d like to say no other friends except three or one local friends and my girlfriend, which means almost no one international friend, no Chinese friend.
I had lots of temporary international friends. For example, I spent very good time in the first few months in Finland with few German friends, I miss those days sometimes also. By living at Paawola, I got friend from Pakistan, Kenya, India, Italy, etc. I also had friend from Czech republic, Turkey, Estonia during the study, and etc. While these people are on the flow, they were just in Finland for half year or one year, or 3 years at most. The friends seem to be only valid within certain period. Everyone is struggling a lot with lots of problems. Besides, there is great cultural and information barrier among people from different countries, which makes it too difficult to deepen the understanding or even the actual talking. It’s always a phenomenon to see the international people to spend most time and get most friends from the people from their own countries.
I also feel sad and surprised that I haven’t got a Chinese friend even. The problem is due to our changes, especially my changes in the opinions, values, and preferences. Everyone abroad is changing, even we are from the same country, people become so lonely and independent and even hard to meet. Even they are not physically far from me, while I know nothing of them and feel they are in another world, and we have no any connection at all.
Some opinions and ideas are always in the conflict in mind. For example, I feel being asked should I spend time and attention to make friend from foreign students, since they just stay here for short? Does this Finnish thing related to me? Does the big news in China relate to me? What should I care? Who can understand me? Is it possible to get into Finnish circle? Is it really possible to have a normal, stable Finnish friend? Why people in China seem to not understand me at all? How can I get close to a Finn? and etc. These conflicts are all just because I am abroad.
To sum up, people abroad are struggling for lots of practical problems, and more difficult thing, for the sense of belonging and home, visa extension, etc. Everyone is like a single boat on the sea, you don’t know what a wave of water would come, where you will go to, how long can you be with a friend, etc. People in such case can only care their own and be pilot for their own life. Everyone may leave at some point for various reasons, thus, friends are only valid within some period.